Boundaries: Can Someone Be In A Boundaryless State If They Experienced Developmental Trauma?
If someone was able to step back and reflect on their life, what they may find is that they have the tendency to isolate themselves. At other times, when they are around others, they could lose themselves and end up going along with things that are not in alignment with who they are.
Naturally, living in this way is going to mean that it will rarely be possible for them to truly embrace life and their true self will rarely see the light of day. Not being around others will stop them from losing themselves, that much is clear but what it won’t do is allow them to connect to anyone, and, being around others will stop them from being alone but as they hide their true self, they won’t be able to truly connect to anyone.
Now, if they didn’t have the need to isolate themselves and didn’t lose themselves around others, their life would be radically different. They would only need to isolate themselves if they chose to; it wouldn’t be something that they felt compelled to do.
As for losing themselves, this wouldn’t be something that plagued their life either. If they did end up in a position where they didn’t feel as though it was possible for them to stay connected to themselves, they could stand their ground and/or simply walk away.
When this is what takes place, it will show that they feel safe enough to assert themselves and feel comfortable being in their body. Thank to this, there is no reason for them to continually pull away from life or themselves.
They will be able to do what they need to do to move forward, not backward and to stay connected to themselves, not to be disconnected. Right now, given how they currently experience life, this could seem like a pipe dream.
The First Step
However, as they are able to see what is going on, it will show that they have already taken a step in the right direction. Not only could they be experiencing life in this way but they could be completely oblivious when it comes to what is going on.
Due to this, it wouldn’t be possible for them to do anything to change their life. Their life would continue to play out this way and, as a result, they would continue to suffer unnecessarily.
If they were to think about their life, what they may find is that this is how they have been for as long as they can remember. Consequently, this could just be seen as how their life will always be.
Part of them may even believe that they were simply born this way and so there is nothing that they can do. Undoubtedly, if they are strongly identified with this part of them, they are unlikely to be filled with hope.
A Life Sentence
According to this part of them, they will just have to accept what is going on or at the very least to do their best to tolerate it. How they live life is unlikely to fill them with joy and a sense of empowerment, so tolerating the life that they lead is going to make them feel even worse.
Fortunately, their life doesn’t have to stay this way forever, providing that they do what they need to do. Before this step is taken, though, the big question is: why is their life this way?
Regardless of whether or not their childhood years were not very nurturing, what may have had the biggest impact on them is what took place during their infancy and toddlerhood. This may have been a time when they were often neglected.
When they were not neglected, their caregivers might have seldom attuned to their needs and ended up overwhelming them. Therefore, due to a lack of bonding and the right attunement, they would have been deeply traumatised during this time.